In This World but Not of It

I have been thinking a lot today about being in the world but not of it... for one very simple reason. I'm 'out' in the world more now and am learning what it's like to be sucked into its ways. I can see now how my husband is bombarded day in and day out with the lure of the enemy by what goes in the world... I feel like I've been sheltered for so long and this is a huge wake up call for me to put the armor on daily and to be light and salt in this darkened world... however there are two instances now, where if I were to witness to this gal, what would my testimony be? My heart hurts that I have so easily fallen prey to the ways of the world, slipping right into that mold that squeezes and squeezes... I don't want to be shaped into the mold of the world, but to be who Christ has called me to be... not losing my identity in Him by letting the world dictate to me how to live.

A phrase that hit my heart hard last week was: live life like you mean it... and it just keeps rolling around in my head... God is calling me higher up... and making me aware, once again, how dependent I need to be on Him and Him alone. When I go to work that three hours a week I need to be aware of Jesus with me more than I realized... it's humbling... and I want to make sure I run this race well, and let my light so shine before men that they will glorify my Father in heaven...

For those of you who don't know, I'm working at Kennedy Club Fitness three hours a week in exchange for a membership. God dropped it in my lap for my health (my cholesterol has gone down as has my A1C (checks blood sugar levels over a 3 month period)), but I am seeing now, that there are other reasons He's called me to this... what kind of light will I be?

This is challenging for me and while I embraced these changes in my life at first, I soon found myself resisting them. I am now wanting to embrace them again, because it's what GOD is doing and it's all about Him and for the first time in many many years I really want to have it BE all about Him and not ME! May I be found faithful... and let Jesus have His way.